Day One- The Enlightenment of a Self Abuser

Status: An unhappy self abuser who has recently become enlightened

So here is the deal. I created this blog to help myself. It's not for anyone else. I'm happy to share it with anyone who stumbles upon it but it is truly for me.

I realized today, January 18th 2010, My weight, my inability to get or keep a boyfriend, my bad grades, my tough relationship with my mother, my problem with my religion, my anger, my frustration, being sick all the time, my confusion about life all comes down to one thing:

I am a self abuser.

I create the drama in my life. It's an on going cyle that will not stop unless I stop it.

For a long time I have blamed other thing in my life for my bad luck and bad attitude. Finally I see that I am the only one I should blame. Circumstances happen but I am the one who reacts so badly. I am the one who can't keep her head on strait.

So I'm going to change. Not big changes but small ones, one at a time, untill my life is a little bit better.

I'm going to take the time to fix myself.

I'm going to stop being a self abuser.

Five good things about me:
1) I have a beautiful smile,
2) I adapt to situations quiet easily,
3)I'm logical and smart,
4) I have beatuiful hands, and
5) I'm loyal.

"The only thing that's constant is change; make the most of it. "